Sickness

It’s me versus my 3D self which is practically me saying me versus who I was and everything that my 3D self has been through.

I don’t know why it was brought up at this time and why. I need to reflect about it more. What I do know, though, is that I no longer want to be sick or feel sick. I want NONE of it. Getting my tonsils removed can only do so much apparently :,(

Journaling helps me to reflect and think about it and something popped into my mind while typing this. I’ve been hearing people say “downloads” and I guess this is pretty much a download haha.

I’ve been thinking about BOYS (ew LOL). Jokes aside, it’s true. There is a lot that I have yet to unpack with my situations with boys. There are also so many ideas in my brain that I can do to help with this but it just hasn’t been something that I’ve completed… yet. I plan to get around to this.

Maybe you’ll see parts of this unpacking here on the site, I mean some of it has already been out, but my “big” idea is to write a book about all of it. It’ll come out, one day. With this comes a lot of thinking about what I’d like out into the world and how it’d affect me, etc. I’d like to say I’m pretty much an open book and part of that comes from the fact that I like to be real and transparent about my experiences and what I’ve gone through.

Anyways, to bring this all together, I think in part I am sick because there is a lot that I want out, especially with thinking about my past relationship experiences.

Jada-lyn